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#199971 - 01/17/08 09:03 PM let it go
2526 Offline
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Registered: 01/17/08
Posts: 5
Loc: wv
Ive never talked about this before, but I found this site and Im ready to let it go. I was abused by my mother. She took it hard when she and my dad divorced. We were alone and I guess she took it out on me. She would whip me for every little thing, usually in front of others. I was always so humiliated. She would and still does tell everyone stories of how she beat me. And people just laugh it off. How can people let that happen. When I was 12, my stepdad split too. Mom again started taking it out on me. This time though, she started abusing me sexually too. During and after a whipping she would lightly brush my sensitive areas, as if by accident, but in a way that produced an erection. Then she would berate me for liking the punishment, make fun of my size. She did this until my late teens, then just stopped. Ive spent my life being beaten and humiliated.

#199972 - 01/17/08 09:08 PM Re: let it go [Re: 2526]
alexey Offline
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Registered: 08/16/05
Posts: 1676
Loc: Moscow, Russia
Hi 2526,

Welcome to MS community.

I am sorry for the reason you are here, but I am glad you found us!

Thank you for sharing your story.

Take your time here.


When you feel all alone and unhappy, turn to you Inner Child and talk to Him.
You will see He can comfort you like nothing else!

#199975 - 01/17/08 09:11 PM Re: let it go [Re: alexey]
2526 Offline
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Registered: 01/17/08
Posts: 5
Loc: wv
Thank you so much sir.

#199977 - 01/17/08 09:23 PM Re: let it go [Re: 2526]
Freedom49 Offline

Registered: 12/31/07
Posts: 2724
Loc: Washington State
It is hard to love a mother who is supposed to love and protect you when she treats you like that. You have to know a that there was nothing wrong with you. She was a damaged and broken person who did not know how to cope. She didn't see you she saw all her frustration. Your ok guy. What she told you by treating you that way is a lie. Don't listen. Stay with us here and heal a while. You will find friends here with similar stories.


Edited by Freedom49 (01/17/08 09:23 PM)

#199979 - 01/17/08 09:52 PM Re: let it go [Re: Freedom49]
Scoutvictim Offline

Registered: 06/04/07
Posts: 434
Loc: St. Louis, Missouri

I also want to welcome you here to MS, and say I'm so sorry a place like this has to exist. BUT, I am so glad we are here to help each other. Pull up a comfortable chair, grab a Pepsi, and stay a while.

You will find many kind and helpful guys, just waiting to let you lean on them. Take your time, and post as you want, but please read and believe that many guys here will understand.

BTW.... we are a little less formal, so please... call me Carl, not sir. LOL

I hope to see you around more, and I will look for you in chat.


Shawn and Ben will always be in my heart....

Happiness is like peeing your pants; Everyone can see it, but only YOU feel the warmth.

Peebles, Ohio WOR alumni, Oct. 2007

#199980 - 01/17/08 10:07 PM Re: let it go [Re: Scoutvictim]
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Registered: 10/29/07
Posts: 955
Loc: North Carolina, USA
Welcome 2526,
It's sad we have to have this place, but I'm glad its here. I wish you well on your journey.

I'm a normal person dealing with abnormal experiences.
The greatest discoveries we will find within ourselves.
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#199983 - 01/17/08 10:15 PM Re: let it go [Re: GateKPR4]
frost Offline

Registered: 03/15/07
Posts: 1377
Loc: Eh?
You've found the right spot to be; hope you find healing here.



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