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#195669 - 12/17/07 07:36 PM Now and then

Registered: 08/12/07
Posts: 1298
Sitting here with thoughts pounding in my head
Flashes of images bursting in my brain like fireworks
The world recedes taking me to a place that's past
Time ceases its forwards motion stopping and repeating

Riding the tide of thoughts long banished
today and yesterday entwined like ropes of fire
Burning the past into my eyes

becoming a part of now
Pain punching into my head eyes slitted against the pain
sick to the core
Scared and trembling like a kid again
Crawling into a cupboard to hide from myself
Hide from myself inside myself
Crying forever crying

#195696 - 12/17/07 11:55 PM Re: Now and then [Re: SEVEN ARROWS]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Seven Arrows,

I remember that feeling of "hiding from myself inside myself" and how confusing it felt. It eventually helped me a lot as guys reached out to me to show me I didn't need to do that. I hope you will come to see that soon as well.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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