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#195480 - 12/16/07 01:23 PM Christmas Party first
GateKPR4 Offline

Registered: 10/29/07
Posts: 955
Loc: North Carolina, USA
Last night I got a call from a friend in AA who asked me to go to the yearly Christmas party at another friends. It was 5:30pm and the party started at 7:30pm so I said OK. Being in AA for over 4 years I had never went to this due to my anxiety and fears of crowds. Well I went and had the most wonderful time, We sang carols
and I got to see a lot of people that care about me. Most commented at how good I looked that there was something different about me. I told them yeah I smile now \:\)
MY truly close friends in the program, the ones that mean the most to me I disclosed to and they were very supportive and happy that I had made a breakthrough. They are the ones that know about some of the csa and know that I was not dealing with it. They could actually see physical change in me since the breakthrough. I just felt so good inside to be noticed in a good light, that there were changes that people could see that I was not aware of.
They told me I used to look sad all the time even at meetings. Now I was not sad. I got lots of hugs an was a very welcome guest . People really do care about me and I felt it for the first time last night.
This is just another tape thats been erased, the false one that nobody in AA really cared about me.
They do and they miss seeing me at meetings.
I told them I would be back but after the csa is dealt with.
I just wanted to share this with you because we go through so much negative stuff I feel its important to also share the positive.

Edited by GateKPR4 (12/16/07 01:27 PM)
I'm a normal person dealing with abnormal experiences.
The greatest discoveries we will find within ourselves.
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#195481 - 12/16/07 01:32 PM Re: Christmas Party first [Re: GateKPR4]
DanM Offline

Registered: 11/09/07
Posts: 540
Loc: So. California

I am so glad that you had such a nice time. It restores your faith in mankind when you see how compassionate people can actually be. It also shows the power of our fears and mind to be able to freeze us and not experience life. I hope this is the beginning of many more pleasurable times.

Take care,


#195483 - 12/16/07 01:46 PM Re: Christmas Party first [Re: DanM]
alexey Offline
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Registered: 08/16/05
Posts: 1677
Loc: Moscow, Russia

I am very glad for you. It is a true breakthrough. I am happy to know you loved the time with friends.


When you feel all alone and unhappy, turn to you Inner Child and talk to Him.
You will see He can comfort you like nothing else!

#195501 - 12/16/07 03:34 PM Re: Christmas Party first [Re: alexey]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

I'm so happy for you, and especially for your discovery. It's a powerful moment when we see that people really do care. It's of course great that they do care, but when we see that we also see we are worth caring for. That discovery is even more important.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#195518 - 12/16/07 05:21 PM Re: Christmas Party first [Re: roadrunner]
sabata Offline

Registered: 08/08/06
Posts: 1950
Rick---This is so great---Steve

#195547 - 12/16/07 08:25 PM Re: Christmas Party first [Re: sabata]
RICK57 Offline

Registered: 12/31/03
Posts: 1611
Rick - thanks for the positive. Each time I hear something like this, the world becomes a little brighter.

Best wishes ...Rik

*Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up.
*I was seeking a way of expressing my anger - I found hope!
*There are many battles before the war is won! It can be won!


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