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#194329 - 12/08/07 07:16 AM questoning life
nicky Offline

Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
mounting bruises all over the place
a punch in the stomach
a slap in the face
love is that what it is suposed to mean?
i dont like that word if that is the way it is
it hurts to be loved
it hurts so much
crying and he doesnt care
cry some more he will say
you disgust me
get out of my face
what did i do this time
i try to be good and to be very still
make no noise because he knows just what to say
something i dont get is
how i could be hurt so bad just to be able to play

i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

#194345 - 12/08/07 12:38 PM Re: questoning life [Re: nicky]
dancr6 Offline

Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
If it were as easy as most people think; that you should just "walk away from it" or"I'd a kicked his ass" we wouldn't allow some other man's mental disturbances to be a part of our life. They impose thier troulbled mind on an innocent person
mainly those of us that had our emotional receptors exposed.
Your poem took me inside my bubble of empathy floating through your situation. I hope your writing about a memory and not a current experience!

I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

#195361 - 12/15/07 03:13 PM Re: questoning life [Re: dancr6]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

It wasn't up to you to know that this wasn't play at all. You trusted him and you had every right to think you could do that.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#195391 - 12/15/07 06:30 PM Re: questoning life [Re: roadrunner]
weapher Offline

Registered: 12/11/07
Posts: 60
Loc: Oregon
love is not that...hang tough...true love will show itself one day

Facing the struggle makes you strong.


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