As some of you have noticed i am going through a very trying and mentally confusing time. Paranoid one minute and angry the nexted, sometimes i just want to curl up and hide and cry.
Last night was a small miracle. I managed to get to sleep early and i slept for about four hours without any dreams or nightmares.
Then this morning i went down town and did not feel scared or thought that i had a sign on me telling everyone that i was abused.
The sun was shining, and it was a bit frosty, but i enjoyed being out in the big bad world. For just a few hours i could be ''normal''.
The day is going well so far, no panic attacks, no hiding from people, no anger and i feel level for once.
I dont know how long this will last but im enjoying every minute of it.
Just thought id tell you all about my good day so far, dont know how long it will last, but until i fall foul of my inner fears and drop back into the hole. Im going to enjoy it as long as it lasts.
Thankyou all for being here when im up as well as when im down.