wow - 2 of you at once - it's nice to have you join in but at the same time we are always so sorry you have to be here!
at any rate, FNF is working on getting a kind of introduction sticky on the board so maybe you can take a look at that thread and see if some of that helps you out.
obviously, since both of you posted on the same one - you can see you certainly aren't alone; most unfortunately, male survivors of csa are plentiful.
take your time here, read some topics, check out the resources and ask all the questions you want.
to hopenlove - it's crucial if one is going to therapy to find one who specializes in csa - it's also important to find someone who can give you hope, duh!! i think i'd lose my temper pretty quick with a so-called professional who started in on being negative - especially when the whole point of visiting a therapist is to make one's life better! well, yeah, anyone can just say, cut off your leg if it hurts so much - but hey doc, how about fixing the pain so i don't have to cut it off?
there are links on here also about finding a good therapist and lots of threads about it also.
so read on, ladies, join in, share as you wish. i'm sure others will have comments also.
all the best,
my avatar is one of the Battle Angel characters, fighting the good fight.