Sorry for your sadness, Steve, and I can identify with that intense feeling. You might try to establish a "new tradition" for T-giving and other holidays. It may be something your 'lost child' wished they had or could do when they were younger. In my neck of the woods it would be go to the Philadelphia or NYC Macy's Thanksgiving Parades. I'm sure your 'lost child' wanted to do something special on a holiday! Good luck!! Thinking about you and sending great thoughts your way!!
If you think you can or you can't - you're right!.......anon
It's never too late to have a happy childhood!.....anon
You're very normal for the abnormal situation you've been through..............S. Todd