Welcome, Glad you and Amanda found your way here, but so very sorry that you needed us in the first place.
Your experience is shared by many of us here in one way or another. The one thing I discovered here was how healing it was to be able to talk to other survivors about it. They understood! It was like I'd finally come home.
Hang on, Friend. We'll be right here along side you as you try to figure it all out. There'll be times when you are helping us to understand and times when it'll be the other way around. Either way we win.
Lots of love,
"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting 'Holy Shit! What a ride!'" ~Hunter S. Thompson