I'm probably only writing this so that I can make sure I can remember this in the future, but I was thinking about the abuse and among the reasons that I struggle is the fact that technically under NJ state law it wasn't a crime because I was 13 at the time, had I been 12 it would have been illegal. However, I had only been 13 for about 3 months at that point. I'm thinking that being that I had very few friends and I was in 7th grade at the time (I was left back), I think that I can reasonably say that my maturity and my sexual knowledge level were at least 3 months behind my actual age.
"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"
"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"
"You don't know what love is...you just do as your told"
"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"