i try really hard to be as much as possible, basically if i start being self-deceptive i'll end up drinking myself into oblivion, or worse.That's probably the healthy fear i hold on to. I try to encourage other people to help keep me honest...if any of you guys think i'm blowing smoke up my own a--, just quote the post, add "gray donut" to the reply, you can "gray donut" my chat too; a silly phrase maybe, but it's no joke for the long-term consequences for me. At least w/ posting here, all anyone has to do is check on older posts and compare them to the latest ones, see if there's a difference, more honest, less honest, what have you- you might surpise yourself (in a good way too) w/ noticing the differences between when you first started posting, to where you're at now. I'm still wet behind the ears around here, but after many months, i'm sure i'll get curious what i did post early on...
Give sorrow words: the grief that does not speak
Whispers the o'er-fraught heart and bids it break.
-William Shakespeare, Macbeth, Act IV, Sc. III