I'm sorry you are have such a hard time, Richard. At times I have been overwhelmed, too. This especially happened when I first started. Not to mention that sexual abuse now seems to be the hot topic in the news.
One thing to do when you feel so overwhelmed it to take a bit of a vacation.... take a break. Do something fun. Avoid any newspapers and TV and don't come here. Of course, another thiing do is to talk about your feelings, in posts, in chat. It can help you think through things, by writing them down. At least it does me. Based on what you said, I would suggest you take a break of a few or several days. When you feel like it, come back, and post one the poems that expresses your feelings. Don't read anything, unless you feel you are ready. Just some things to think about. I hope this helps some.