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#184264 - 10/03/07 04:19 AM down agian
nicky Offline

Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
ive been pushed down so many times
i wonder if this time will be the last
as i lay here and feel myself fading
my thoughts are invaded by memories of my horific past
and the fear of what is hidden in my delicate mind
i feel the presures of shame and rejection building
when did i become this thing i hate
as i lay here on the floor
i have no strength to get up
im not worth it any more

i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

#184280 - 10/03/07 08:51 AM Re: down agian [Re: nicky]
michael Joseph Offline

Registered: 03/11/01
Posts: 2719
Loc: Virginia
hey did you read my mind nick

hang in there

life has a way of changing when you least expect it

Standing together is so much better than hiding in the dark.
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#184308 - 10/03/07 12:46 PM Re: down agian [Re: nicky]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Originally Posted By: nicky
when did i become this thing i hate
as i lay here on the floor
i have no strength to get up
im not worth it any more

Well, you had the strength, energy and commitment it takes to write a poem about it bro. That's already a start and an appeal for help. You are indeed worth it and there's nothing about you to hate. What's hateful is what was done to you.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#184760 - 10/05/07 04:19 AM Re: down agian [Re: roadrunner]
sunshine70 Offline

Registered: 08/29/07
Posts: 51
Loc: florida


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