This is an update...
I have now spent the last four months celebrating this new found wisdom.
As I said in the original post on this thread, Telling Is VERY Healing. The weight of our secrets can be very debilitating. The more I try and keep this secret, the more it eats away at my soul.
I have talked openly about my past, with many people, but I always left out the details. Since my enlightenment, I have begun to share some of the less grisly details.
I have found the people who I interact with to be so much more understanding of my quirks and mood swings. These friends now offer a helping hand, and are always willing to listen when I just need to spout off. The funny thing about their reacton was the lack of surprise. I guess the people I call my friends always knew something was "wrong with me", but I never gave them the credit or confidence to share. I now know they are true friends, and they will always be there for me.
With out the realization of the healing power of telling, I think I would still be living a lie. When you keep secrets, you build a wall that even your friends cannot penetrate. That barrier will keep most people away. The distance between you and your spouse/friends/co-workers will continue to make you feel lost and alone in this world.
I would like to encourage everyone to begin to share your secrets. Talk to someone! If it is on this site, friends, family, therapist or even a co-worker, please set the secret free. It can do wonders for your friendships and relationships.
Telling has begun the healing for me.
Luv ya all,
Shawn and Ben will always be in my heart....
Happiness is like peeing your pants; Everyone can see it, but only YOU feel the warmth.
Peebles, Ohio WOR alumni, Oct. 2007