As a lot of you know i have been having a lot of problems over the last couple of weeks. I have been very down and i get very intense on people.
If I'm being truthful, things had come to a head, i contemplated finishing with life. This would have been the third time i have tried to finish it all.
But a strange thing happened, a lot of you would not let go, you kept on pushing me and trying to get me to see that i had a future after this.
I am already on two waiting lists for Therapists and on my doctors waiting list. I also have a T that i can email.
I'm finding this hard, but you would not let go, when i talked you counselled me, you kept on talking until i listened
I have contacted my assessment T by email today, telling him i was not able to cope anymore. He emailed back saying that he was pushing me up the list and would contact me on Monday, with a date for my assessment.
I have contacted a crisis line that is helping me in my darkest times.
I am thinking about going into voluntary inpatient care, i have done this before, if i went back in it would be in a secure unit, until my condition became stable.
I cannot thank you all enough, you gave me the push i needed to start the process of getting to grips with my problems.
I know it will not be easy or quick, and i know i will have my bad periods, but i am determined to straighten myself out.
Thank you and i hope you can carry on putting up with me until i get my head sorted.