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#180252 - 09/14/07 02:02 PM Feeling Bruised...
Agape Girl Offline

Registered: 07/25/07
Posts: 120
Loc: New Jersey, USA
Feeling it today....starting to feel the bruises on my body.

I had a dream 3 months ago, it was 2 weeks after my bf disclosed to me, I dreamt that I was covered in bruises, it's poetic don't you think? Poetic, because although I have no real understanding of CSA, I am human and I LOVE, I love mostly unconditionally. So when you hurt, I hurt.

This must be the reason I cry, while we are intimate. I cry for you and for me. I don't like it. Not so long ago I remember crying because I was so overwhelmed by "OUR" moment. It was joyful and beautiful to feel such love, I did at that time feel soooo much love, and peacefulness.

Now it's hurting me, ONE of the many things that was truly beautiful between us.

means selfless love of one person for another
without sexual implications
(especially love that is spiritual in nature)

#180253 - 09/14/07 02:06 PM Re: Feeling Bruised... [Re: Agape Girl]
sweet-n-sour Offline

Registered: 10/03/06
Posts: 409
Loc: chicago
Hi. Wow, very profound...truly. A very heartfelt posting, a great representation of the complexities we feel in being the supporter of a csa survivor. Your bf is a lucky man.

You have a great spirit and I admire you friend!

Best wishes,

"As long as he continues to try, I will meet him in that determination and commitment."

cm 2007

#180264 - 09/14/07 02:42 PM Re: Feeling Bruised... [Re: sweet-n-sour]
healingpartner Offline

Registered: 04/04/07
Posts: 407
Hi. Yes...sometimes it seems things are just slowly stripped from us one at a time until nothing is left.


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