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#173896 - 08/17/07 03:43 PM Just saying hello
jessedawg Offline

Registered: 07/17/07
Posts: 345
Loc: New York
Just wanted to check in and say hello, nothing much has changed, still trying to study, working nights, trying to talk to my therapist but it's been pretty unsucessful so far. Everytime I try and get something out i'm filled with so much shame and guilt and pain about it that I just clam up. Still having the flashbacks, they're awful. triggers, nightmares, the only thing that helps is staying awake and studying, not sure how long someone can go without sleep though, guess i'll find out soon enough lol

Firefighters - your worst nightmare is just another day at the office.

#173906 - 08/17/07 04:29 PM Re: Just saying hello [Re: jessedawg]
Scoutvictim Offline

Registered: 06/04/07
Posts: 434
Loc: St. Louis, Missouri

Just a thought.... don't force it with your T. When your ready you will be able to tell her.

Just remember the only person who should feel guilty, is the sick perverts who did this to you.

As for shame, I felt a lot of "shame", but once I realized it was more embarrassment then "shame", it was easier to talk about. Just try and remember, it's over now and the only way to work through it, is to talk about it.


Shawn and Ben will always be in my heart....

Happiness is like peeing your pants; Everyone can see it, but only YOU feel the warmth.

Peebles, Ohio WOR alumni, Oct. 2007


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