i found a good way to raise my self esteem, maybe sharing it with you might help you
i have problems with liking myself, and i assume thats because he told me i was stupid and worthless all the time
so i look in the mirror and tell myself im not worthless until i start feeling better
might sound stupid, but it works for me
Man, the mirror again! I used to hate looking at myself in the mirror because I thought all I was seeing was the boy who did whatever the abuser wanted. But now I think back and I realize that what I was seeing was a frightened mixed-up boy who was worth as much as any other kid.
Sometime sooner than you think you will see the same thing, bro. You will be amazed at all you have to offer others and all the wonderful things you have to live for. You will like yourself again because there's a lot there to like.