So many of us will recognize our own issues in what you say about "standing tall". There were so many days I just wanted to curl up in a corner and disappear; I would catch myself thinking, "I'll do whatever you want, just don't hurt me anymore".
But it does get better, bro. Hang with us. There are answers.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)