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#169871 - 07/30/07 06:30 PM Excuse me while I fall apart (triggers)
Jaysen Offline

Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
A spot of hope in a mess of destruction, fairytale's always have their own morbid twist-gruesome endings. A perfect moment shattered in interruption, the perfect murder when addiction meets its addicter. Cacophonous silence and relevance lacks substance with eyes wide shut I stand in recognition, I take the blame. Remnations of consequential bliss that you turned away
from when millions of miles away our hands touched.

Though moments of recall, factor to nothing piercing my eyes into yours like power probes of persistance with desperation apparent yet I still exist.

So I strive in darkness, I think out loud through hemispheres of conceptual finding power lines of pardon paradox striking with its vast force. Tread on my ground through mountains of self regret, reflection flattery.. poison discrambling through glycerine shots and cyanide sweets.

Under the sqeaking clean moutaintops of misery I fall.
Beauty was never really captured until now and it's all a lie, it's a glossified picture, it's a gun in your hand to your head, a stubborn trigger in trembling fingers and subconcious resistence...

Screeching vocals, octaves of unexplainable shame. A lullaby so loud and jarring that the purity is ruptured, with the softest touch to its earshot the dream now lacking serenity... nothing but a fucking song without a voice.

Screams so loud, no one can hear them.

#169873 - 07/30/07 06:40 PM Re: Excuse me while I fall apart (triggers) [Re: Jaysen]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

I hear you. I understand. Perhaps not much else matters right now, but these two always matter.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#169995 - 07/31/07 12:25 PM Re: Excuse me while I fall apart (triggers) [Re: Jaysen]
pain4ever Offline

Registered: 04/05/01
Posts: 1032

"Screams so loud, no one can hear them."

What a profound statement. We hear you....we care and will be here for you.

Its okay to fall apart everyonce in a while...its neccessary to a point. Dont get down on yourself...You are human...a human who has been hurt.

Hang on man,

Peace and Tranquility all depends on your frame of reference.

#170014 - 07/31/07 01:34 PM Re: Excuse me while I fall apart (triggers) [Re: pain4ever]
Jaysen Offline

Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680


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