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#169682 - 07/29/07 08:27 PM I am OK.
markgreyblue Offline

Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
to my friends here on the site.

i can barely comprehend my experience of the last weeks

but i am ok - i am calmer for sure

i am pretty wilded by the adventures i've had and attacked

even stumbled upon.

i do not know how i am going to get from point a. to point b. at this moment -

but i do know - that i understand myself - and life - a bit better

i'm pleased to say here - i've got a smile on.

keep well buddies.


Edited by markgreyblue (07/29/07 08:27 PM)
" not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous

#169687 - 07/29/07 08:37 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: markgreyblue]
sabata Offline

Registered: 08/08/06
Posts: 1950
glad you are ok----------------------mark

#169688 - 07/29/07 08:40 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: sabata]
FormerTexan Offline

Site Administrator

Registered: 09/12/04
Posts: 11982
Loc: Denver, CO
Good to hear from you Mark!


Money talks, but all it tells me is goodbye.

If I could meet myself as a boy...

#169694 - 07/29/07 09:33 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: markgreyblue]
MusicMan Offline
Junior Member

Registered: 11/23/03
Posts: 146
Loc: Elmira, NY
Hi Mark,

It has been a very long time. It is nice to hear from you again. Sounds like life is a bit chaotic for you. And I see that you have moved to Boston. The last I knew you were living in CA. I hope that you get from point A to point B.

God bless,
John, the Music Man

#169734 - 07/30/07 04:54 AM Re: I am OK. [Re: MusicMan]
lostcowboy Offline

Registered: 11/10/04
Posts: 798
Loc: Rhode Island
Hi Mark, hope that things are getting better.

Take care,

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus
Pretty much my life as I have posted so far. Triggers!

#169756 - 07/30/07 07:15 AM Re: I am OK. [Re: lostcowboy]
duncanUK Offline

Registered: 12/24/06
Posts: 632
Hi Mark

hope you are well. and things are getting better.


you dont see me. i am not really here. Its my fault.. all of it. I am to blame and no one else.

#169757 - 07/30/07 07:18 AM Re: I am OK. [Re: duncanUK]
pain4ever Offline

Registered: 04/05/01
Posts: 1032
Hey Mark,

Good to hear from ya...its been a while...was getting worried. Whats been going on?? Glad you are in good spirits...keep smiling!

Heh...I am OK....famous words that normally mean were not.


Peace and Tranquility all depends on your frame of reference.

#169838 - 07/30/07 12:08 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: pain4ever]
TNuss Offline

Registered: 02/28/06
Posts: 203
Loc: Del-A-Ware???
good see you back with us!

All my best!!!

In harmony,
I hug myself daily until the day I find the embrace that completes me.

#169899 - 07/30/07 06:03 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: TNuss]
Alexander Offline

Registered: 10/17/06
Posts: 223
Loc: The Netherlands
good to hear from you Mark, I was just wondering how you were doing, yesterday. \:\)

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath

#169936 - 07/30/07 09:12 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: markgreyblue]
Russ2 Offline

Registered: 10/28/03
Posts: 77
Hi Mark.

Thank you for posting.

Hang in there, man!

- Russ

#170204 - 07/31/07 10:45 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: Russ2]
markgreyblue Offline

Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
thanks guys. it's probably the loneliest time i've ever gone through - and also the most self evaluating. i wish it weren't.

i think i can see so many things sometimes - it's been rough to choose - where i am right now - if that makes sense.

mgb is just battling to restart his life - and he will do so.

and work - would so welcome right now.

keep safe, keep peaceful - keep managing your lives day to day.
the way you need to, the way you can too.


" not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous

#171584 - 08/07/07 07:02 AM Re: I am OK. [Re: Russ2]
Still Offline

Registered: 02/16/07
Posts: 7011
Loc: FEMA Region 1
Thinking about you Mark

#171628 - 08/07/07 09:04 AM Re: I am OK. [Re: Still]
roadrunner Offline
Administrator Emeritus

Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Do let us know if you are needing some time to yourself or whether you are okay about talking to people. I keep wondering how you are doing.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#171802 - 08/07/07 09:05 PM Re: I am OK. [Re: roadrunner]
markgreyblue Offline

Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
Hi Larry and Guys,

Things have been really strange. If I say this with total frankness, I'll say in some ways - I've been changed.
In others, the time and isolation have made me feel
and process things from the past (all of it.)
I am stronger and more mature in a different way - grief but also good memories abound.
The goals I dreamt about and established in Dorchester
I hope to carry through this winter 'arting' out and maybe working in a coffee shop - which - would be low stress - and idyllic -

My friends here are invaluable to me. I have new friends here on the West Coast, but my winter hopefully will be spent quietly -
productively and godwilling, there'll be an alonon
there to keep me in a network - and coping.

Just the beginning of thoughts though - so
save room for evolution - epiphanies - and updates \:\) - -


Edited by markgreyblue (08/07/07 09:06 PM)
" not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous

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