"What the hell is going on here?"
Sorry, but I can't help echoing Wills' question. And I'm gonna vent a bit here, so be warned.
I think yesterday is the first day I've not been on this site at all in weeks, even more not counting my week away for continuing ed (and I got in some those days too).
I come on this morning & find that Brian, who seemed rather trustworthy from what little I knew him, announcing his departure after some "inappropriate behavior," which I completely missed (chat room, I guess).
I gotta be straight guys: this shit is really making me sick. And it seems like the more I/we try to flush it down where it belongs, the more it keeps backing up, dammit!
No I'm not blaming anybody for bad plumbing or anything! I'm just disgusted & disillusioned.
This place has been a clear stream of water for life to me. It hurts to see all this toxic crap getting dumped in here on us!
But I know dam well that even the purest spring can be polluted. No matter how well it's guarded, protected, monitored, supervised, etc. I know that when this happens the people who drink from stream & the people who supply the power & bring the water in are not to blame.
The only ones to blame are the manufacturers of toxic waste that manage to disguise themselves as legitimate customers in need of our water, only to spew their shit into our stream!
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Sadly, it seems that we will never be able to keep these dumpers of the chemicals of deceit & abuse out of our creek completely. Mores sadly, sometimes one of us somehow gets polluted & dumps toxic stuff on us himself.
This brings me to a sober realization: this could happen to me too. I could become toxic, hurt somebody. Intentionally, I don't think so--but then maybe "they" didn't either (some of em anyway).
However, it also brings me to a more optimistic & hopeful realization, and assurance: I
can draw upon the support I need, & offer the support others need, which helps me not to become toxic but to be therapeutic, to myself & to others. It's a positive (as opposed to vicious) cycle. I
can help flush the toilets in here, and I
can make sure I flush my own toilet & keep my toxic products to myself. We all have them. We've all gotta take a dump once in a while. But we can at least use our own bathrooms (are those "water closets" in England, Lloydy
& get it out of our systems!
can do my part to help clean out the trash toxic waste "mangagers" manage to dump in our brook of life. I
can do my part not to brook these intruders, to help keep them out, and kick them out quick when they sneak in. I
can do my part to help clean up, and to help provide a supportive supply for the replenishment of our little river.
We all can, tho I'm speaking for myself only. We can, becuz we are
this site, this stream, this water of life, to & for one another. We are a greater force than toxic intruders like "Lying Crud."
We have great administrators, moderators, and members here, and true brother survivors coming here all the time, adding to this wonderful stream of life that we are, the ongoing stream of male survivors, that will not be stopped up or ruined. Ever! :p
Yeah, I vent & I ramble, but here it is for what its worth. Felt kinda good to me, hope nobody finds this too offensive.
Fact is what's been going on is offensive, its dirty business. Its sickened us all.
But it has not stopped us up or poisoned us!
This remains a stream of living water, living male survivors, offering life to each other & to those who come & and are thirsty for more of life to live.
I am convinced of this, and I damn well intend to do all I can to keep it that way! I'm convinced we have an unstoppable stream of male survivors here with that same kind of conviction.
That's why more & more people keep coming here & joining here. I think that membership number in the corner of my webpage here rises every day, and it thrills me!
I want to make sure that the people coming here new get what I got when I first came: a warm welcome, brotherly hugs, and support, insight & encouragement that flows & just won't quit!
That's what we all want; its what we're here for, why we're part of this stream!
I am extremely proud of our administrators & moderators! I think they've done an incredible job, hard-working & underpaid, volunteers on their own time & dime.
The number of men who join & visit this site is enuf to make it clear that there are a lot of peddlers of toxic product out there. Our administrators & moderators have clearly kept most of them out, and the ones that have gotten in have been quickly revealed & shown the exit door. They've done incredible cleanup & damage control, and continue to work to make this an even safer site.
And so have our many true & faithful members! And I want to personally thank each & every one of you!
Sorry this is so long but I'm leaving it as is. Don't feel there's anything I really wanna change.
And as for me, the terrorists do not win nor do I negotiate with them! They will not stop me from flowing with this great stream of survivors! They try they will get bit!
This is my
site, and again, I am marking my territory right here! Trespassers KEEP OUT! Dangerous guard wolf on the prowl!