Jake--really moving piece, dude. I actually read through this before, but didn't reply. No idea why I didn't...I really love this thing...I agree with everything in here and I'm impressed with how optimistic you still are in the face of everything.
Hang in there and stay strong, my twin from down under =)
There is nothing natural about maturity in the physically immature. Maturity comes with wisdom, and wisdom comes with pain. Those of us with the greatest minds have endured the greatest torments.