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#162276 - 06/19/07 11:41 AM This insubstantial little boy
Jaysen Offline

Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
For just a second there we punctured impressions into each other
clinging together like sap, saturation…

I fell into your eyes and tripped over your heart.
You snuff my breath with whispered swords that goes something like: I am different. Here, right now, from all you have extinguished.

You say unwanted boys would never learn how to keep love, they don’t deserve unconditional attention, they are forgotten – who weren’t good enough.

But I feel emancipated ejecting intellectual discourse- to somehow subjugate a patented fate-matter; and reason- why we minimize so accordingly, in dreamscapes at airports, where the mural-length glass panes are portals to where we end up, and our expanse- like a walk to freedom.

Please don’t say that, not unless we can stay enchanted and your smile, it lit up my life brighter than fire works on the harbor, sadly I could only feel the heartbreak of those who have not yet experienced you.

And you can't love a self-punishing masochist because he won't let you.

I was born without rose-colored glasses - to really understand worth. I was worth your countless compromises, gratifying as pornography. But you did teach me mess accumulation socially tangible Tran animation eating in bed the madness of indecision love at fatally close sight and life after love.

You’ll always be more than enough for me; you are a mystery- absolute in the world. I'm insubstantial, narco-bound, staggering to translate the sun>

#162297 - 06/19/07 01:19 PM Re: This insubstantial little boy [Re: Jaysen]
pain4ever Offline

Registered: 04/05/01
Posts: 1032
Wow are an excellent wordsmith.

You deserved the attention because you are not insubstantial.

Peace and Tranquility all depends on your frame of reference.

#162298 - 06/19/07 01:21 PM Re: This insubstantial little boy [Re: pain4ever]
healingpartner Offline

Registered: 04/04/07
Posts: 407
you are an amazing poet, coloring such a picture with words.

#162577 - 06/21/07 12:39 PM Re: This insubstantial little boy [Re: healingpartner]
knot4sail16 Offline

Registered: 06/19/07
Posts: 44
Loc: Southeastern U.S.
That was beautiful. Thank you.


letting the broken pieces be shaped into something new and beautiful is the greatest joy and struggle of this journey

#163161 - 06/24/07 11:56 PM Re: This insubstantial little boy [Re: knot4sail16]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

You were never insubstantial, though yes, that's what abusers seek to teach their victims, often with great success because a boy is not yet prepared - emotionally or intellectually - to see how false this lesson is.

But now you can see it, and you don't even have to look very far. Where do you think your spirit of fun and your impish sense of humor come from? Your topics when you joke are Big Jaysen, but the spirit behind them is 100% Little Jay, waiting to express himself in more serious ways as well.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#163302 - 06/25/07 04:32 PM Re: This insubstantial little boy [Re: roadrunner]
Jaysen Offline

Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Hey Larry... for the last time, get the hell out of my head will you? Otherwise I'm going to have to start charging you rent!


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