I just want to add a word of welcome to Male Survivor. Your post wasn't dumb at all and I'm glad you found us. I am another victim of abuse in Scouting, by the way, in case you ever need to talk about things. PM me any time.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)