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#157514 - 05/22/07 02:00 PM The Scream
Bobby Offline

Registered: 12/01/04
Posts: 1287
Loc: Arizona
I know how it is to hurt all alone
When nightmares hide deep within dreams
And little boys hold all their secrets inside
But, when do I get to scream?

I know what it's like to be silent and brave
And stand still while fingers ream
And fight back the tears, when the night seems so black
But when do I get to scream?

I know what it's like to make yourself numb
And pretend you have great self-esteem
To live someone's life whom you don't know at all
Who smiles through his urges to scream.

And when I am dead and they open me up
They will find things were not what they'd seemed
For the child and the man and the demons will fly
Out of me, with a deafening scream.

I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.

#157559 - 05/22/07 06:51 PM Re: The Scream [Re: Bobby]
froggy12 Offline

Registered: 11/12/06
Posts: 527
Loc: Marlboro, MA 01752
What about when big guys hold all their secrets deep inside.
They do not scream but they do cry.
They cry alone then no one will ask: why you cry?

I cry from fear, I do not want to be alone. But I am. Even my demons have left me.

And you know what Bobby, that's the worst part.
Because something else will take their place.
So I sit here and do nothing but tremble
and say once again: what the fuck have I done wrong now?
I give up.

a bogged down froggy in his mire.


#157562 - 05/22/07 06:53 PM Re: The Scream [Re: froggy12]
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
Another great poem, Bobby.


And little boys hold all their secrets inside

I held a lot of secrets, too.



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