i need to be straight forward and just say this - don't place 'judgement on it' if you would -

just - does anyone find - with all the worry of fending off - bad stuff to keep life going - and

trying to keep bad people out of your life -and understand the upset and triggers -

does anyone have time for love - relationships or physicality ?

when i was in TO - i was just decorating - and taking care of life -

I had phsycality - but it was like - only that - i wasn't ready for 'love'

now - to have relationships - it's so complex and exhausting -

i am mostly - reeling - from dealing with the fallout from assholes -

and mostly protecting myself -

who has time for this? -

hopefully once i start work again - i'll have a pattern to give some time -

to it

"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous