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#147056 - 03/26/07 06:01 AM Communication
jamie' Offline

Registered: 03/10/07
Posts: 125
Loc: Ont, Can
So many nights i've tried to tell you
And baby i have tried
But my fear keeps me waiting till the mornings sun shines
Till something else occupies my mind
How am i to tell you, have you look up at me with your big brown eyes
And have to look back to you and break down to you
Cut myself open and stand paralized infront of you
Let you inside where i cant protect you, or myself from you
You need me to and i need you to hear me
So this i scream to you from within me

So many years ago, when there was no dawn, no place to go, no life, no light, no hope
wrapped in blankets, alone, dreaming, oh how i dreamed. looking out the closet to the window to the vast sky, the vast blue sky with a hope. So many times i've lost control and tears fell praying to the sky to take me from this hell. Wanting to shed my skin and climb free, climb outside myself and be anyone else. Hearing the handle turn while smelling the rain, knowing soon comes pain. Oh baby how i screamed at him to stop hurting me to find it was only screams in my mind with my jaw clenched tight. countering a fist with my tears for years in a losing fight. Praying to god to make him realize once, just once that i was his son.

Edited by jamie' (03/26/07 11:19 PM)
No matter how long and dark the night is, Or the fear and hurt that it can bring, there will always be a dawn, where we can push the past aside and move forward with hope.

#147069 - 03/26/07 12:29 PM Re: Un-Silent [Re: jamie']
shadowkid Offline
WARNING from ModTeam, September 2013: user "Shadowkid" was exposed as a hoaxer. His entire online persona and stories of sexual abuse were fiction. We encourage you not to become emotionally concerned by anything you see in any of his posts. Thank you

Registered: 11/18/05
Posts: 2437

its not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball - damien rice

#147083 - 03/26/07 02:55 PM Re: Un-Silent [Re: shadowkid]
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Registered: 02/16/07
Posts: 7011
Loc: FEMA Region 1
a main-line to pain.... \:\(

Well done!!!


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