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#144917 - 03/11/07 03:10 PM Without your voice
AndyJB2005 Offline

Registered: 11/14/06
Posts: 1249
Loc: Minnesota
Without your voice

i want to talk to you.
you see, i'm in that space
where shadows sway on the asphalt.
nothing to point at and say: there,
that's the dagger coming on
end over end, sure to sink sharp
into my skin. nothing to grab either,
nothing big enough to hang on to.
no rocket ready to launch, just
glowing coals needing me
to keep blowing.

i want to talk to you.
i'm in that space i keep coming to:
no eat, no sleep, no dream. sure,
i swallow. it's mechanical. and i
spend time unconscious. and there's
things i crave. but the sea is a mirror
and the engine is cranked way over
so i just keep spinning 'round
and 'round, bouncing off my own wake.

I want to talk to you.
hear you say: it'll be okay,
you never bleed for too long,
never don't come up for air
even when you touch bottom
with the ship. i know all this
but without your voice
the words are colorful kites
broken from their strings.

(andy b.)

Life's disappointments are harder to take when you don't know any swear words. -- Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)

#144927 - 03/11/07 05:18 PM Re: Without your voice [Re: AndyJB2005]
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
A beautiful poem, Andy. Very well written. It says a lot about the desperate feelings of dealing with all this.


#144940 - 03/11/07 07:00 PM Re: Without your voice [Re: EGL]
jamie' Offline

Registered: 03/10/07
Posts: 125
Loc: Ont, Can
That was a great poem.

No matter how long and dark the night is, Or the fear and hurt that it can bring, there will always be a dawn, where we can push the past aside and move forward with hope.

#144998 - 03/12/07 12:16 AM Re: Without your voice [Re: jamie']
AshSurvived Offline

Registered: 01/07/07
Posts: 167
Loc: Australia
Paints pictures in my mind.

Very moving.

"It's your world Dave, I'm just livin' in it"

- Harvey Pekar to David Letterman
(American Splendour)


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