Bringing up old posts is ok, we can remember and learn a lot from them.
My mother, and others, sexually & otherwise abused me from about ages 2-11. When I was 11, my mother sold me to a gay couple to be raped. Don't remember if that was the only time, but I do know it was & will be the last time I was sexually abused by anybody ever again!
Fellow survivor, I hurt for you. Just remember that you have survived these horrors, you are indeed a survivor.
"I can't stand pain. It hurts me."