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#142498 - 02/20/07 10:58 PM Understanding (triggers)
Bobby Offline

Registered: 12/01/04
Posts: 1287
Loc: Arizona
Been thinking about you all day
All of you
Hurting little boys
Almost lost it a couple of times at work
Almost had to talk to someone
Work at a church, so plenty people around to talk to
But how do you tell them?
How do you tell them that you were just thinking about this kid who....
The stories are so hard to hear
You want them to know
You want everyone to know
You want everyone to know that it's going on somewhere right now
Some little boy, some teen-ager, some grown up man is being abused
And it hurts inside
And you want to tell
And you want to cry
Because sometimes the sadness pulls at you
And you remember what someone said
And you feel it at your desk
Or as you walk
Or as you have a conversation
And you need to get away
Need to process
Need to save the little boy in your mind
Need to save yourself
Need to let the hurt work through you
Let it come
Overtake you
And then pass
You fight it off
But it doesn't go away
It just sits there waiting for another chance

I love you, little boy
I don't know who you are
Or where you are
But I know your fear
I know your dread
I know how it feels to accept what is going to happen
I know what it is to reject yourself and take that last precious part of who you are and move inside
The only way to save yourself from what is going on
And I know how your life is going to feel
The loneliness
The numb
The things you'll do to fight off the blackness that surrounds you
And I want to hold you in my arms
And coax you back to life
And let you know yourself again
Your beautiful, beautiful self
Before it's too late
Before you're gone

Before you become me

I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.

#142560 - 02/21/07 08:01 AM Re: Understanding (triggers) [Re: Bobby]
shadowkid Offline
WARNING from ModTeam, September 2013: user "Shadowkid" was exposed as a hoaxer. His entire online persona and stories of sexual abuse were fiction. We encourage you not to become emotionally concerned by anything you see in any of his posts. Thank you

Registered: 11/18/05
Posts: 2437
bobby its beautifull if you delete the last sentence, someday i hope you will want to adam

its not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball - damien rice


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