you got this right...!!!
i started to let life happen!
a young bartendar here at the hotel talked to me a few days back
i thought nothing of it -
but then he gave me my drink free!?
today - he saw me again -
and he stopped his work
and talked to me at length...
instead of getting suspect - "what do you want?" stuff
i let it happen -
and watched his face - as he talked about his day -
and - he even said "i usually hate talking ..."
he is the bartendar - and outside of his role -
brought me my food today -
i think - as we get happier with ourselves -
i think we can also start to see outside of "shoulds"
and see the better reality coming at us -
..steppping out of the way - and letting life happen.
he asked how long i am staying here -
and hopes to see me again! LOL
i think yes - i deserve better than being alone -
and to enjoy a really handsome young man
to take an interest -
i kind of have to pinch myself - since -
i always used to shut off - or find some reason -
to not go with it. and well - when i did go with it -
it was usually a disaster -
it's kind of nice - we're just chatting
he just wants to talk to me
and no one else...