i want to talk about the situation as a child

when i had to know - all answers -

constantly -

instantly -

no room for being younger than my father - or anyone -


i became - a mess resulting from this -
et al...

but - too -

i've been healing as well - slowly -

and trying to deal

with "me"


i was at the gym - today -

and i felt the stress of things not being

all 'just so' right now -


i kind of backed up - and thought - and looked and saw

"life is a process" -

a set of processes -

if you will -


i relaxed - and kind of felt good -

no more need to have it all in an instant -

at least for me -

and more the room

to let relationships grow i thought -

and no need for stressin'

interesting to me


"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous