i was sitting here - trying to get ready for the day ahead

honestly as time progresses i find i get more and more fatigued, more easily -

and so - i am managing this - i am learning - as
i can thrive on work - and 'doing' -

but also i realize not only eating well and taking care of my physical and my surface is important -

but i realize now this fatigue is something -

i kind of kept pushing it back down -

i am not tired - i can keep up

but i kind of am really feeling it - OLD -
too -

I kind of relativised in a first time - a vision -

i tried to realize i am so stressed - do others feel this way during the day?
or even after a how long i have worked this morning?

but the thinking about it - almost gave me a sense of humor too -

i just wanted to say in a kind of way -

oh fuck if i care about all this pretty 'just so'
attitude -

i am actually ok - and i am kind of making myself laugh about it -

you should see the look on my face - i saw it in the mirror - it is pretty comical -

almost like someone - made something very smelly -

anyway - i hope you all have a good day -

peace and deep breaths -



"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous