i was sitting here - trying to get ready for the day ahead
honestly as time progresses i find i get more and more fatigued, more easily -
and so - i am managing this - i am learning - as
i can thrive on work - and 'doing' -
but also i realize not only eating well and taking care of my physical and my surface is important -
but i realize now this fatigue is something -
i kind of kept pushing it back down -
i am not tired - i can keep up
but i kind of am really feeling it - OLD -
I kind of relativised in a first time - a vision -
i tried to realize i am so stressed - do others feel this way during the day?
or even after a how long i have worked this morning?
but the thinking about it - almost gave me a sense of humor too -
i just wanted to say in a kind of way -
oh fuck if i care about all this pretty 'just so'
i am actually ok - and i am kind of making myself laugh about it -
you should see the look on my face - i saw it in the mirror - it is pretty comical -
almost like someone - made something very smelly -
anyway - i hope you all have a good day -
peace and deep breaths -
"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders
"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous