I experienced something similar. For me it was awkward becasue I really supressed my abuse (wouldn't admit to myself it happened for years)and found myself looking at shemales.
Always considered myself straight, have never been attracted to a man, but felt really uncomfortble about it, especially once I started dealing with the abuse. What happened to me though, as a cause of the porn I looked at, was that a roomate saw it cached in my browser, and quietly told all his friends and my girlfriend, who left me. I'm still not over her and it's been a year.
So, I have all these people who think I am a self-loathing homosexual in denial, and it's really stressful to try and explain it, and even if I do, no one believes me...
I keep trying to tell myself that other people's uninformed opinions shouldn't make a difference on how I look at myself but ego already feels pretty fractured from life.
Edited by Daggenfel (03/04/07 11:33 PM)