My name is Mike, and I am 42 years old. I served our country in the U.S. Air Force from 1982 - 1986. My father was a marine, and so was my brother.
I was sexually abused by my step father from the time I was 10 years old until I was 16. My mom divorced my biological dad when I was just 7 years old due to his chronic drinking problem.
When I was in High School (In Tallahassee / South Georgia) I chose to befriend a group of guys who were homophobic. We would drive by the local gay bar, and throw our empty beer bottles at the guys outside the bar, calling them names like "Fag", "Cock Sucker" I think that you get the picture. Luckily I never hit anyone with an empty bottle. I WAS homophobic. I remained homophobic for several more years, then when I was active duty stationed over in Germany I had a sexual experience with a black guy who was in the Army. His name was Leroy, and he, and I proceeded to have sex several more times. I have been with more guys than gals, and have only been in one long-term relationship, and that was with a guy.
To this day part of me STILL does NOT want to be gay, while another part of me loving, accepts and em brasses my being gay.
IF anyone is willing to be my friend, and advise me on how to proceed with coming to terms with who I honestly am ( A gay male). Your care will be GREATLY appreciated.
I am seeing a psychologist once a month, but I really need to make a couple of friends that I can find support in and chat with from time to time. I currently don't have any friends, I don't share this information out of, nor am I looking for any pity, but just to say that I need a friend, really.
Mike in Florida
You can contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org