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#123663 - 03/04/05 04:14 AM ohhhhh
Logan Offline

Registered: 04/05/03
Posts: 1368
Loc: NY
... my god
ok thiws is going to be a bizar post

i am extreamly hungover
i am going to mispell alot of words

I really have been thinking offf going off the drink for a while and i've bin dealing with alot of horrible topic in therapy and i try not to let it get to me i say it doesn't but i think that it does
ok time for a breather

ok, i think it afects me in more ways than i let on, even to myself.......fuck it i think i'm gonna quit....i am really scared of continuing but i know that i hav to.

if i can finally put this to rest i can continue on with life....i kno that i hav bin staling.

and i am scared to deathof moving forward

time to


"Terrible thing to live in Fear"-Shawshank Redemption
WOR Alumnus Hope Springs 2009
"Quite a thing to live in fear, this is what is means to be a slave"
-Blade Runner

#123664 - 03/04/05 04:23 AM Re: ohhhhh
FLRich Offline

Registered: 06/21/04
Posts: 1404

I know how you're feeling, man. I sometimes wonder why I ever allowed myself to open this box of memories that I have kept locked for so damn long. Some days it's overwhelming. I was talking to my T last night and I decided that I've opened it now, so dammit I'm gonna leave it open and deal with it. If I don't have jack when I finish, at least I'll have my sanity and my own life back.

#123665 - 03/04/05 04:27 AM Re: ohhhhh
Curtis St. John Offline
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Registered: 01/20/04
Posts: 1798
Loc: Westchester, N.Y.
i try not to let it get to me i say it doesn't but i think that it does
By the looks of this post, it does get to you.

But you know that.

What you have here is the age-old practice of self-medication, but the alcohol is not the medication to get rid of what you’ve got… it’s like hitting your hand with a hammer to get your mind off the headache.

I know, because I tried it too.

The only thing that will heal you is the medication of digging through all the crap, and that medicine scares all of us…

But you know that too.


Hang in there, you can do it.


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