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#123053 - 01/08/05 10:30 PM Happy Birthday my brother
Leosha Offline

Registered: 06/18/03
Posts: 3614
Loc: Right here
This day comes again. Last year, it was so hard to make it through this day, this week. And again, here it is.

You would be 23 years old today Makar. You would be a man, with a life of your own, and who would only know what we would be to each other, how much we would see each other. We would maybe see each other only one or two times a year, if my life were to be similar and I were to live outside of our country. Or perhaps you would do the same and we would be physically closer.

I want you to know, you are not now, not ever, forgotten. Your life was short, but your spirit has lasted so long. I know that you have been with me in my life. I know that you have even saved my life, when it has been 'not my turn' to go yet. We shared so short a time on this earth together, but what I most remember of you is the laugh, that 'little baby' laugh when I tickled you, how warm you were when we were asleep together, and how good you smelled, so much 'baby smell' always. You were a beautiful child, and I know you would have been a beautiful man. Even though your time physically in my life was so short, I can not imagine my life without you having been in it.

Thank you for being my guardian angel, my guiding star. Thank you for your gentle reminders that my life is not yet over, that there is more I am to do here. And thank you for bringing into my life someone I value so greatly as close to a true 'brother' as I could imagine. No one will take your place, ever. But thank you for helping me find someone to fill some of the emptiness in my heart and soul. Thank you for being a soft, gentle and loving presence in my life, even now.

Happy Birthday my brother. I love you.



Avatar photo in memory of my younger brother Makar.

"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."~~~Martin Luther King Jr., 1963

#123054 - 01/08/05 10:48 PM Re: Happy Birthday my brother
reality2k4 Offline

Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6845
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...

Tonigt, I will light a candle for him and for you, and I will ask God to keep you both safe and strong.

He is part of you, an angel taken away, but he will always shine for you.

When I read this story, I got to the bottom, I saw his picture, and it made me cry. Not many things can do that.

Thanks for sharing,


Whoever stole the Sun, put it back and we'll drop all the charges!

#123055 - 01/08/05 11:43 PM Re: Happy Birthday my brother
FLRich Offline

Registered: 06/21/04
Posts: 1404
Happy Birthday, Makar. Your brother has grown into the most generous, kindhearted,and good man I know of. You would be so proud of him. You will forever live through, Leosha.

#123056 - 01/09/05 12:27 AM Re: Happy Birthday my brother
crisispoint Offline

Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts


There are no words. \:\(

He lives in you, my friend, my comrade, and he lives beyond this place, where nothing can hurt him. He IS watching out for you this very day.

I thank him for giving you strength, and I thank you for giving me strength.

I grieve with you.



There are reasons I'm taking medication. They're called "other people." - Me, displaying my anti-social tendancies

#123057 - 01/09/05 01:31 AM Re: Happy Birthday my brother
Mike Church Offline
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Registered: 01/23/03
Posts: 3439
Loc: Toronto, Canada
Leshka: God keep him with you.

Happy birthday Makar (((((((((((((((MAKAR))))))))



#123058 - 01/09/05 01:53 AM Re: Happy Birthday my brother
markgreyblue Offline

Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
kisses and blessings to you Leosha -
happy birthday Makar

" not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous

#123059 - 01/09/05 09:13 PM Re: Happy Birthday my brother
TJ jeff Offline

Registered: 08/07/04
Posts: 3594
Loc: Northern Wisconsin

I read this post as a beautiful rememberance of the love that should be shared between brothers...

Leosha - remember that you will always carry a part of him with you - always...

You are a good man Leosha - he is proud of you I am sure

TJ jeff

Who will cry for the little boy? - I will... - Antwone Fisher

Abuse happens in silence/isolation - Recovery happens only when that silence/isolation is broken...

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