i was a twice nationally awarded painter in high
and a straight A - literally - and one of the best students in all of LA - listed in the LA times -
Sunday Edition -
awarded many academic awards in High School and garnered college credit before
college - through a special examination process -
my father's accountant - saw my tax and receipt keeping methods - this year - after getting back in touch
and my father in turn said -
"mark you are a conscientous person" (like he never knew or understood that)
- um - is this a news flash to you dumbass?
why doesn't he know or remember me?
it's like he sees the world only in
terms of himself and his own experience -
it's really bizarre-
he once said - about himself - "i don't remember anything"
this is frightening -
"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders
"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous