when my mother past my father decided he did not
want my stepmother at the funeral
it was not for any propreity
but for his own liking -
he lied to his wife - he said his kids didn't want us there - untrue.
then he lied to everyone and said "she didn't feel ok about coming"
she - his wife then used this against us - in an argument one night - he got caught in the lie - but he didn't care - we can't argue with him as nothing matters
he walked into church the day of my mothers funeral smiling and he waved to me and us in church - waved smiling? -
the day my stepmother's grandmother was on her deathbed - in the hospital many of us
were sitting around her bed crying a bit -
because we loved her - though she was not dead of course - she was commatose -
but we were just saying 'goodbyes"
my father looked to his brother in law - and said
we were all crazy - and that he and the brother in law who was trying to be strong - were the only sane one's here -
this woman even if comatose might have heard him?
and to say a thing - about her -
at her funeral he eulogized her - and shifted gears .... praising her -
even even started to have a sexual fantasy - saying
she was probably a good lover -???
the guy is a sicko
"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders
"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous