I have a ? for those with DID.
...I have no memory of this so I accept that I dissociated.
...I have vivid memories of these events.
...that it would have been more than a quick look but have no recall of what. There is more with him but it is similar, like “what happened”.
So here is my question. Do you think I created an alter to take the pain?
As an adult I am always present but I can switch personality's so quick. I am confused
It certainly sounds like you have some level of DID. To understand it better we could ask questions about other symptoms that you might have. Symptoms of DID are pretty variable from person to person.
Just the ages at which abuse took place would probably cause DID in a lot of people.
Do you ever hear conversations in your head? (I'm not talking about psychosis)
Do you ever go in a shopping center and come out and can't find your car?
Do you have bad PTSD reactions to certain people?
I don't think I ever "lost time". This is a situation in which a person with DID will lapse into a different personality and then the previous personality will simply be gone for a while. The "while" is called lost time. When he awakens, a span of time will have elapsed and he won't know where it went.
Sometimes a child personality will have special toys. There is no other explanation for the presence of these toys.
I think that at age 12 - 13 ?? I went for night explorations. They seem like sleep walking to an observer, but it is actually one of the abused personalities in control of the body and walking around places.
Does anybody who knows you ever tell you that they saw you doing something somewhere and that you had no recollection of it?